I SAY STOP READING THIS A LOT IN MY EARLIER POSTS, but that's cause this blog used to not be meant to read, but now I don't care if you read! SoI started this blog on a website called blogger, and I set it on private, using it to document how I was feeling everyday and trying to figure out what makes me depressed. I am in recovery for substance abuse, depression, an eating disorder and BPD. I've had this blog for over 300 days, and looking back now, I've really grown up a lot since I first started this blog back in july. I'm so proud that I went from getting drunk and high every weekend, to living a healthy life style. For a while I lost my passion for working out and running, but I've got it back now, and I'm ready to rebuild myself to be as alive as I can be. So I'm Madison, and this is my story.